May Angels lead you in.

hearing about the four (now five, i think) guys who died in a car crash this weekend seemed like normal news to me. that is, untill i found out one of the guys who died, Mike Fleming, attended the same camp as me. although he went a different session and i never actualy met him, it hit closer to my heart than i anticipated.
i've found out that seeing others suffering hurts. i've found it fustrating that your not able to do anything for them, except offer to listen and try to be there. as if that is nearly enough...
yet nothing seems to feel exactly right.
i've found myself happy alot this weekend and past few days, yet i feel guilt too.
i feel guilty beucase i am able to let others make me laugh, and to enjoy life while so many others are numb with suffering, and mourning the loss of a close freind.
daily things now seem so trivial and meaningless. i have found so many things in my life that i think are so important, yet in the big picutre and grand scheme of things, they are a tiny grain of sand. they are so small, so worthless, but i spent a lot of time focusing on it. oh if we were only able to focus on whats important! to take NOTHING for granted...
beucase life is something so easily taken for granted.
all i can think of is four young boys who lost their lives way to quickly.
they were so young. Loved ones die, yet life still finds a way to carrey on. it's hard to surrender to that, but one cannot live in the past hurt.
May angels lead you in.
hear you me, my friend.
on sleepless roads the sleepless go,
may angels lead you in.